|In his arms...
||[Jan. 29th, 2004|10:22 pm]
|||||Celine Dion- I'm your lady||]|
Hmm today wasn't really that great of a day. Started off really bad, then my dad had surgury today so i was like a nervouse wreck hoping that it wouldn't paralyze him. After school Alicia went with me to go see him, we stopped and got him this huge ass balloon and a cute lil teddybear.. He was soooo drugged up it was funny as hell. Janette was there, she stayed with us last night. Grr.. As much as I don't want to like her, I think I sort of am, but then again I don't want to because she is not my mom in any way shape or form. I'm not even gonna call her my stepmom.. just Janette, my dads wife.. She's had nothing to do with my life of rasiing me and I don't want her to be a motherly figure in my life. So what if i'm selfish.. I'm not ready for my dad to get married.. he's only been divorced for a year.. Just pisses me and my brother off.
I was off work today, tomorrow 11pm-7am them I'm off on Saturday. I'm soo gonna stay awake till 9 go get my check cashed, go home go to bed, sleep then go get my hair done. Not really sure what i'm gonna do to it.
Saturday night, I'm going up to Hattiesburg to spend the night with James. I just really need to be around him right now. He's been there for me through everything with my parents..It just feels sooo safe with him.. I'm gonna go pick him up from work, go to his apt.. crawl up in his bed talk for a while (seriosuly) and fall asleep in his arms. It just feels so right with him, don't get me wrong, he's my best friend.. but the on and off 2 year relationship between me and him finally ended (due to stress,him being an hour and a half away) so.. were keeping it on a "just friends" level , so that we don't fall back into our old habits of sayin fuck it.. lets make out.. it'll be right.. but then after its like.. god i love you but we can't do this, it'll hurt to much for the borh of us ( and he is soooooooo right, to many crying nights )
Oh well, I've gota skyy blue chillin in the freezer.. i'm gona go do that then do some homework.. (shh) night yall xoxo Kers